One: The same morning as the previous episode, the hospital,
Bobbie and Amy Vining are talking as Tom walks out of the elevator.
Amy is freaking out because of; her disastrous date with Mike
Corbin (Sonny's biological father who is Luke's maitre' d).
Did something dire happen?
Yeah, (throwing up her arms) I just probably ruined my
entire life. I got to go call 'em. (She walks off) Good-bye.
Tom and Bobbie watch her.
Bobbie: Ah, the vagaries of
Tom: Give me old love
any day. 'Course.... it has vagaries of its own.
How are you doing after last night?
Tom: Well, I'm not quaking
and shaking on the bathroom floor any more. That's enough, don't
Bobbie: I'm glad you're feeling
better. Felicia said it was a full-grown panic attack. Does it
Tom: (Clears his throat) Not
so much any more. (Somber) But... uh.... Never quite so public.
Thanks for taking over Tommy for me.
Bobbie: Ahhhh, he's a wonderful
little boy. He's amazingly mature.
Tom: No kid should have to
watch his father fall apart under his eyes.
Bobbie: Yeah. But he saw you
get it back together.
Tom: Yeah (rolling his eyes
and walking around)!
Bobbie: You know, I've only
heard a little bit about your experiences in Africa but... I can
imagine how harrowing it must have been.
Tom: (Turning to her) Actually,
I don't think that you can.
Bobbie: You wouldn't be human
if it hadn't left some effects.
Tom: It's an interesting question:
What constitutes human? -- aside from the biological factors.
Bobbie: (Thinking, then shrugs)
I can't answer that. But I do know something about human needs....
we all need unconditional love.... and not to many of us
get it.... you should be grateful that you have a son who
adores you (slight smile).
Tom: I am!
I wouldn't know what I'd do without him (slight smile). (Getting
somber again) Maybe that's what this is all about.
Bobbie looks at him. Tom looks as if
he is contemplating something.
Scene Two: Bobbie and Tom are still
talking when Tony walks up, agitated. He shows them the hospital
news letter. He is disgusted by an article, "The Humane
and Pragmatic Approach to Care for the Terminally Ill."
Tom reading the article, "By none other than Dr. "Let-the-Poor-Kid-Die"
Dorman. Tony thinks firing is not enough he needs to be kicked
out of medicine. He reads on, Dorman writes that it is a waste
of money, personnel and resources to treat the terminally ill.
Tom snarks, "I think he has a future in Congress."
Tom is furious, he thinks Steve deserves this for trying to
give the creep some humanity. Tony thinks after the article
Steve cannot keep Dorman on staff. Tom, "I'd say you really
blew it this time, Dad!"
Scene Three: Another morning, Simone
is helping Tommy get ready for school. She tells him that they
are going out for dinner with Justus."I *can't*!"
he replies, "I have to eat with Daddy. He *needs me!"
She tries to reassure Tommy that Tom is fine, and to get upset.
Tommy disagrees. Simone tells her son that Tom told he he was
fine. She tells Tommy that his father just gets sad when he
thinks of Africa. He still whines that he has to be there for
his father. Felicia tells him that will go up to his father's
apartment and he will explain. Tommy tells her that his father
is at Felicia's place. She replies, "Of course," and
looks and sounds none too happy.
Scene Four: Felicia's
place. Felicia is feeding Georgie, while Tom is struggling put
on Maxie's coat; he and they see comfortable with him being
Maxie wants her locket and Felicia
reminds her to hurry up, the bus will be there soon. Just then
Georgie turns over her bowl.
Maxie: I'm be right back (runs
Tom: Right Right!
Felicia: (Takes food off her
face and licking her finger). Ehhh.
Tom: Did I ever mention how
lovely you look with oatmeal in your hair.
Just then as Tom picking the oatmeal
out of her hair, Simone and Tommy come through the door.
Felicia: Right! (Noticing
Simone) Hi, Simone! Tommy.
Simone: Hi! I hope we're not
Tom licks his fingers of the oatmeal.
Felicia: Oh no. No. (To Tommy)
Maxie calls out that she cannot find
her locket. Felicia is clearing up the mess.
Felicia: (Sighing in frustration)
Did I or did I not tell her.
Tom: You did! I heard
the whole thing. I'll testify if I have to!
Felicia: (Picking up Georgie)
Alright, I'll remember that. And you know what I'm going to do,
put her down, we.... we're going to gang up on Maxie between the
two of us we can get her to school, okay (walking off).
Tom: (To Simone, gesturing)
You know, I'd offer you a cup of coffee, but (craning his neck)
but I'm don't think she made any.
Simone: (Gesturing ) I'm really
not here for coffee, Tom.
Tom: Okay, why are you here?
Justus invited Tommy and I out to dinner tonight.
Tom: (Slightly sarcastically)
How nice of Justus.
Simone: Weelll, apparently
Tommy doesn't think so, because he is under the impression that
he needs to have dinner with you.
Tom Frowning turns to look at Tommy who
is sitting quietly on the couch. Tom then looks at Simone, who
gives him a subtle head motion. Tom clears his throat, and walks
over to sit next to Tommy.
Tom: Why is that, Son?
Tommy is silent. Tom pats his son on
Tom: (Cont.) I think I already
know. You don't have to tell me. You're a little worried Probably
a little concerned that.... I kinda lost it the other night.
Tommy gives a little sad nod. Simone
Tom: (Cont.) It means alot
that you care about me. I mean that. From the bottom of my
heart. But I'm going to be fine. Really! I'm going to be fine.
Tom: (Cont.) Now, you tell
me, you really want to do something for me?
Tom: (Pointing to his son)
You go out with your mother and Justus tonight,
(gesturing) and tomorrow night you and I'll have dinner.
Just the two of us!
Tommy: But who will eat with
you tonight? Who will take care of you?
Aahhh, I can take care of myself.
Felicia: I will!
They all turn to look at Felicia. Simone
opens her mouth in surprise. Seems like there is a tinge of
Felicia: (Cont.) You're welcome
to take your chances with potluck dinner with us. If you like.
Simone still is not happily surprised.
She turns towards Tom.
Tom: (To Tommy) Well, you
see a solution (gesturing) for everybody.
Tommy: (Frowning) Are you
Tom: Absolutely sure! (Smiling)
Maxie runs in, out of breath, saying
she is ready.Tom looks toward her. Felicia tells her daughter
to take a breath and relax. She and Tommy greet each other.
Tommy: (To Maxie) Do you have
to wear a jacket.
Tom: Oh, jacket, yeah....
yeah of course. Here.... here.... right here.... (handing Felicia
Tommy's coat at him) quick. Put it on. You got your.... jacket.
Felicia walks Maxie and Tommy out towards
the door. Tommy asks for his hat. Simone and Tom are left alone.
Tommy: Well, (clearing his
throat) do I get Brownie points? Think I handled that fairly well
(with a slight smug expression)
Simone: Oh, like a master.
But i am not sure who got handled.
Simone walks off. Tom flashes a look.
Simone stops in the hallway, thinks
for a moment, rolls her eyes and then walks off.
Scene Five: Tom is waiting in the living
room. Felicia returns.
Felicia: Well, the children
are waiting for the school bus.
Tom: A sense of calm and peace
(picking more oatmeal from her hair) descends upon the universe.
Felicia: Enjoy it while you
Tom: Alright, I think I will.
Just then Tommy runs back. They look
towards the door. Tommy runs over to his father and wraps his
arms around him, nearly knocking him over.
Felicia: Uh. See what I mean.
Tom: Wait a minute. Wh....
What is this?
Tommy: I just need to hug
you one more time before school.
Tommy continues to hold on to his father.
Felicia and Tom look at each other,
Tom: Uh.... (Letting Tommy
go) Look, (bending down) let me tell you something. (Patting Tommy's
arm) I am glad (Tom hugs his son) you did.
Tommy, satisfied, runs off.
Tom watches his son. Felicia is looking
at Tom. After Tommy is out of sight Tom looks up at Felicia.
Tom: You think he's got a
little rampant anxiety happening here?
Felicia: He's a very serious
child, he's probably worried sick about you.
Tom: Well, I.... I need to
get right on top of this. I need.... to be steady so that he sees
that I'm steady.
Felicia: What if you're not?!
Tom: (Getting up) Then I'll
fake it. (Slight laugh) Like it or not, fight it though I may,
I am the grown-up here. Time to start acting like one.
Tom starts walking around. Felicia
looks at him, not so sure. Tom pours himself some coffee and
looks over towards Felicia, who has a serious expression on
Tom: Did I, heaven
help us, say something right?
Felicia: (Nodding her head
in agreement) Yeeahh, I think you did.
Tom: Ah uh. Let's hope this
isn't the start of some alarming new trend.
Felicia: Well, I hope it
is! I think that's possibly the best solution for everyone
(Could she be including herself)! Even if you don't quite
feel grown-up it's good to act like an adult, concentrate
on what's best for the child, and then your instincts will
kick in and then everything else will fall into place.
Tom: (Slight frown) How did
you get to be so smart?
Felicia: I've been hanging
out with alot of shrinks. (Slightly flirtatious) Actually, I'm
kinda partial to them.
Tom: (Slight tilt of the head)
I could use that to my advantage.
Felicia: (Smiling) You never
Felicia walks over to pour herself
some coffee, Tom watches, intrigued and a little please.
Scene Six: A little later, at the hospital,
Dr. Kevin Collin's office. Kevin opens the door to find Tom.
Kevin: (Surprised to see Tom)
Tom: (Walking in) A mutual
friend seems to think that I would benefit from your services.
Kevin: Professional services?
Tom: Unless it seems awfully
too incestuous for your comfort level.
Kevin: No, I've gotten used
to that since I've moved here (smiling).
Tom: Would you be surprised
if you heard that.... the moment I came to you looking for a job
I was just this side of a nervous break-down?
Kevin: (Nodding his head)
Yes! But then I've gotten used to surprises, too. (Motioning)
Why don't you make yourself comfortable, tell me (walking towards
his desk) tell me what's on your mind.
Kevin sits down behind his desk. Tom
is seated in front of it.
Tom: Kevin, I'm impressed....
I tell you I walked in here, teetering on the brink of a mental
meltdown and you don't even blink.
Well, actually, without being told I could wager a guess
that you were operating under enormous stress when you
came home from Africa.
Tom: Well, (gesturing with
his finger) that would depend on if you were referring to the
first time or the last.
Kevin: Why don't you tell
me about the first.
Tom: I came home.... looking
for a divorce. I decided, convinced myself that my life in Africa
with the woman.... I was involved with there was what I really
wanted. To be honest, I was actually revealed when I came home
and found my wife in the arms of another man.
Kevin quietly listens.
Tom: (Cont.) Or to be quite
literal, on the floor with him playing marbles with my son. (Nervous
laugh) I never thought much of Simone's taste in lovers.
Tom: (Cont.) But Justus Ward....
(scoffs and rolls his eyes) words fail.
Kevin: Don't like him much
(stating the obvious)?
Tom: He's an insufferable
fool. But then again, there's plenty of people around here who
say the same thing about me. Maybe that's why we don't get along,
were so much alike. Maybe it has nothing to do with Simone at
Kevin: Anything is possible.
Tom: I descended on my wife
and demanded that she pack up Tommy and return to Africa
with me. No deal: Divorce. The outcome was assured.
Kevin: Not necessarily, she
could have said, "Yes."
Tom: (Thinking, soberly he
says) Not in a million years!
Why don't you tell me what happened when you got back to Africa.
Tom: (Getting up) Everything
broke down.... (Walking around, clearing his throat) The defense
mechanisms.... The self deception.... (Gesturing) The mirror cracked.
The pieces hit the ground.... and underneath where the glass used
to be was the real man that the mirror hidden from view.
There I stood.... unmasked.... revealed.... I was a monster!
Kevin looks at him, but says nothing
allowing him to continue.
Tom: I.... I.... I.... don't
know what possessed me to (throws out his hand) even bring this
all up (Walking away).
Kevin: (Standing up) Tom,
Tom stops. He put his hand over his
Kevin: (Cont.) I'd like to
hear it, if you're ready to say it.
Tom: (Gesturing) Well, I suppose
I have to. Say it, that is, that is the first step towards
Tom: (Patting his arm, then
putting his fist back to his face, starts pacing; obviously nervous
and uncomfortable) I'd like to.... consider this.... conversation
Kevin: Of course it is.
Tom walks over to Kevin, nods
then sits back down in his chair. Kevin sits back down behind
Blinks nervously, intertwines his hands
as if; then gestures with them as if to gain the fortitude to
Tom: (Gesturing) I went so
far out. You have no idea. Beyond boundaries of civilized behavior....
Beyond humanity.... decency.... I went so far out I may never
be able to come all the way back.
Kevin listens on intently.
Kevin: Scale of human suffering
must have been unimaginable.
Tom: (Staring intently) I wasn't
just a witness, I was a facilitator!
I cut a deal with a local guerrilla leader.... I had
to. It was the only way to insure the orderly and safe running of
the camp. In return for that safety.... (pacing, putting his fist
to his mouth) and guaranteed receipt of food and (walking towards
Kevin's desk) medical supplies I kicked back a portion.... So in
effect, my guarantee was that I had a constant inadequate
supply.... of essentials. Who got what.... rested
solely with me. Life and death meted
out.... (trying to avoid crying, voice cracking) by Dr. Tom
Seven: Tom is still opening up to Kevin, he is now standing
up away from Kevin's desk.
Tom: (Cont.) I was reasonably
humbled at first.... I accepted this.... sss.... terrible
authority, but reluctantly, respectfully, with diligent
weighing of all the factors involved. (Trying not to cry) Now
when I look back it's like one morning (putting his hand to his
face) I.... I.... I (gestures) just woke up and everything
was different. I was different (snaps his finger)
Kevin continues to intently,
but quietly listen on.
Tom: (Cont.) I was captured
by the power. It's true, Kevin.... absolute power does corrupt.
I lost my humanity. (Walking over to the chair) I forgot (sitting
down) how to feel. (Gestures) I knew that I used to once-upon-a-time,
but I couldn't find the place deep down inside where that feeling
Tom: (Cont.) But what I could
recapture was centered around the thought of my wife
and my son, especially my son.
Tom: (Cont.) It was then that
I realized what a mistake I'd made, letting them go, the sense of
saying, "I don't need you anymore!" And I knew right then
if I didn't fix it, if didn't get my wife and son back, I
would.... surely go mad. Completely mad. Because in a way, I was
Kevin: Tom, I'm sorry, but I
have to ask, do you have any doubts about your ability as a doctor
to function in this hospital?Tom:
(Exhaling) If you asked me that question when I first came back,
honestly, I'd have to say, "Yes!" But I would have lied.
As for now, I still can't forgive myself.
Tom: (Cont.) I can't say that
I have any level of peace. But the worst is over, and I can confidently
say that my practice won't be affected in any way by what I've gone
Kevin: What about Simone and
Tom: She's moved on. I shouldn't
let my regret and need derail their future progress. (Slight smile)
I'm still working on that one.
Kevin: How can I help?
Tom: Ahhhh, (wipes his mouth)
I think (frowns) a few uh.... a few more sessions like these fairly
intense ones (nodding).
Kevin: Sure, whatever you
Tom: Ahhh.... (clears his
throat and puts his hand over his face; gestures) Now that we're
through with that, ahh.... (wipes his mouth) why don't you say
we just uh.... (sits up) get together colleague-to-colleague.
I'll.... I to spring for lunch over at the Outback. We'll....
Kevin: (Getting up) Let's
They get up and leave, together. The jealousy
Tom had over Kevin getting the Head of Psychiatry seems over.